Life is strange, it really is.
Things are going so extremely well for me right now. I cannot believe I am the same person who just last October was in the middle of my life completely disintegrating... how can this be the same life?
My husband is doing *amazingly* well. Well enough that I almost feel compelled to call it a Miraculous Healing. Lithium has truly been a *miracle* drug for him. It has made him into a happy, energetic, stable, fun man. The man he almost was when we married, but the man I haven't seen even a shadow of in 6 years. It is like having him at his absolute best all the time and I absolutely adore him. [To both our credit, I have adored him always, during BOTH the bad and the good!]
I enjoy every moment with him now and our life together has become a new thing - something so completely different [and better] than we ever dreamed.
Watching my children play in the snow - just breathing in such a simple joy... it led me to this introspection about how very wonderful my life is. I feel so privileged to be the mother of these five amazing kids, all so different, so unique, but utterly, utterly captivating.
There is no blessing on Earth I would crave more than what I have in this moment.
I thank God for this. I truly do, I Praise Him with all my being. After all the years of sadness and suffering - I feel like we are walking into a period of extreme Grace.
I look around me right now and I am just so *happy*.
In this moment, my life is perfect.
I know it most likely will not stay this way, but for this moment, I am absolutely content.
I feel acutely aware of the Blessings of the Lord.
And I feel completely ready to follow the Will of God because I know that no matter what He leads me through, He holds me in the palm of His hand.
God is so Good.
6 comments:
I'm happy that things are so much better. I think about you a lot and pray for you and your family. It must be nice to live in an area where snow is a novelty.
Kelly, that's so beautiful! I know exactly how you feel; there are some moments when you are just completely perfectly happy -- totally contented! -- and they are truly a gift from God. And not only are the moments themselves gifts, but knowing that you are in that moment is yet another gift. I'm so glad that your year ended up way better than it started. :-) Amazing, isn't it? Have you ever watched the movie "CastAway"? One of the reasons I love that movie is its message of hope. No matter how bad things are, never give up, because you just don't know what the tide may bring in.... !
Also, I got a kick out of your snow post; I live in Wisconsin so we gets lots and lots of it! I always love it.
That's beautiful, Kelly. And your children are amazingly beautiful! I'm so happy that you're happy :O)
Great postings! Happy to hear this news , sad about the chicken.
Kelly, I just dropped in on your blog briefly, but I was moved by this post and just wanted to say thanks. I am the mom of 4 young and very active kids, so I am exhausted and overwhelmed a lot but I can totally relate to that sense of gratitude to God for what a wonderful gift our children are. Good luck to you!
p.s. I just started my blog recently- isn't it funny we both chose similar names?!
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